Sometimes i think you forget that your a father now. Being a father doesnt mean you have to stop having your fun or doing what you want. It means that you got to make better choices, not only for you but for your childs future as well. Being a father means that you will be there for your child whenever they need you or through there Childhood. But you cant do that if your behind bars. Being a father means you will always keep your child safe, but you cant do that if your drinking and driving. Being a father means you will provide anything and everything for your child but you cant do that if your helping people who cant help themselves first.
When i have problems it really sucks because i dont want to nag and vent to my friends. I feel like a big inconvience lol. I dont want to vent and then next day the bf and i is all good. And then itll repeat and finally your friends dont want to hear it because ill say no this time its for real were over, blah blah blah. But now its come to the point where idk what to do. You can only take so much for so long until you just snap. And i think ive come tp the point where i dont care, or its whatevera already. How are you supposed to save something when the other person wont hear nor care what you feel or have to say. They can go ahead and voice there opinions but when i open my mouth its world war fricken 3. I aint going to be that helpless little girl no more. Im going to speak my mind, voice my opinions whether you like it or not. Im done being the damn victim. Its time I grow some balls haha.
I dont understand how its close to me popping and all you ever do is drink drink and drink! What if my water bag breaks and your so damn wasted to drive! Who the eff is going to take me? Your ass aint driving for shit thats all i know. Time to clean your shit up and get your life together. Beer is always going to be there but the birth of your first child is a once in a life time thing that you cant bring back.
